After coming back to my bungalow with his freshly laundered shirts Aussie put his passport in my safe and basically settled in at my place. We showered, left for dinner at the local market hall (I really wanted to have some Thai food and not a westernized version of it) and later went for drinks on the way back to the bungalow.

But in all honesty we couldn’t keep our hands off each other and just wanted to get back to my place. The moment we stepped across the door we fell on the bed and after another passionate encounter we jumped into the pool again. This time I forewent the bikini right away, no point in playing the blushing bride when I had given everything away already.

It didn’t change the fact though that Aussie was terrible pleased to see me and called me gorgeous the whole time. I am a sucker for compliments and the older I get the more I love them. When I was younger I was always embarrassed when someone paid me a compliment. Now I love them since at any given moment I am my youngest self. I can’t get much better than now.

I had another sleepless night and not only because of Aussie’s wanted attention. I still couldn’t sleep next to someone I didn’t really know and for whom I had extreme cravings. Whenever I touched him my body started to heat up and radiated fire. I tossed and turned in between waking him to stop snoring. Besides the erotic administrations to my body I didn’t sleep well.

We woke up early and Aussie left to drive to his hotel to say goodbye to his mates and get his stuff. In my super happy mood due to lack of sleep and the love vibe I updated my blog and was totally astonished when not even 30 minutes later Aussie was back. He knocked and then entered the bungalow with the words: “I have bad news for you”. I remember thinking why only me? Because right away I knew what he meant.

And excuse me? WTF? Didn’t he tell me yesterday that he was totally into me and rather wanted to stay with me than travel with his friends? I had told him that my girls wouldn’t let that happen because when you book a trip together you stay together and no cares if the ONS was so good that you want second helpings. But Aussie said no worries, his mates are different.

Turns out they were not so different after all and Aussie now really wanted to go to Chiang Mai because he had never been there and it might be his only chance and blah blah blah. I have to tell you, afterwards I was super proud of myself because I told him I understand if I was him I would go to. That Chiang Mai was beautiful and that an elephant ride was amazing. While the whole time I thought to myself wtf, wtf, wtf!! Really, not cool.

Anyway, he also said that he would come to Bangkok a day earlier so that we would see each other again.  I had planned my trip so that I was leaving Koh Samui with a spare day in Bangkok since I had an early flight back home. When he talked about Bangkok I almost got pissed because that just sounded like plain lies and who wants to hear that when you are just unceremoniously dumped.

He left with his freshly laundered clothes still packed and his passport and off he was. and what did I do? I moped around the whole morning, went for breakfast to get coffee because when I am “love-sick” I can’t eat anything and told myself to get a grip! It was not possible to travel for three months alone in SE Asia and then to fall for one douche and ruin my last week of vacation over it. It had been the oldest trick in the book to tell nice little nothings and get the girl to believe. And after such a long and dry sexual spell his words fell on fertile ground and I was caught hook, line and sinker.

And I wanted to be caught. Because wasn’t that what I was looking for in the first place? Let’s be honest here, who goes on Tinder to find friends? Maybe you accept them as friends when the attraction isn’t there. But in the first place you look for someone special. And there is no need to define special, you never know what you get and what will happen. What I know is that it is rare at my age to meet someone and to have instant attraction, that’s something that almost never happens anymore. It does but they are few and with long breaks in between.

So after wasting the whole morning I gave myself a stern talking that this was it with the moping. I have had it with this instant dependency on some random guy to make me feel better about myself. I am good looking and my age be damned I can still have my fun. So I sent him a text around noon, telling him “Enjoy the North, you’ll love it! xoxo”. And with that I left my phone in the room and went to the beach.