Long time no see

Wow, it has been quite a while since I wrote anything here. This is probably because I keep busy with my other blog (click here if you want to see). But also because nothing, and I really mean nothing, has happened in the relationship department. No matter in what sense I use this word. Since Special K nothing/nobody of interest has crossed my way and there was so much else to do.

I will take three-month off work and travel. This is something I have wanted to do since a very long time. More than two years actually, ever since I came back from Brazil I wanted to quit and leave. I won’t be quitting now but get time off. And it is not the asked for year but only three months. But it is a start and I will take it from there.

What I have noticed as well since my leaving day is coming nearer and nearer I am meeting more and more guys. I seem to attract them now since I have no time and interest. Problem is, the moment I am showing interest, there is nothing happening again.

For example last week. I went out with a couple of friends, sure to be back home by 10pm latest after two glasses of wine. How I erred, I came home to the birds already singing. At the bar we went to I met a guy, let’s call him FX. He is not good-looking but has a certain humor and intellect which was clearly visible on this night and I had so much fun with him. He was complimenting me all the time, dancing with me, getting me drinks and being attentive all around. So before leaving the club he tells me that he must see me again and gives me his card to call him. Something I never do, which I let him know. So he takes my number and gives me a kiss square on the mouth and afterwards says that even though it was quite forward I will probably have all forgotten about it by the next morning. Which clearly I have not.

And I also didn’t forget that he wanted to see me again. So guess what happened? He never called. This is almost a week ago. I mean how long does he want to wait? And why am I so pissed that he doesn’t call?
I don’t get myself, there is so much to look forward to. And I haven’t really cared about anyone in a long time. And then I meet this guy, like him, get the vibe he does too and then nothing. Urgh!!! Men!!

Please explain, I am lost here.

Still hanging around

I just noticed that I last updated my blog more than a month ago. And the funny part is that in the meantime nothing has happened.
I have been out a bit on date, discovered Tinder and already went on a breakfast date with a guy from there, but nothing exciting has happened. Sometimes I wonder if I even want anything to happen?
I decided sometime last year after a long vacation that I want to take a year off work and just travel for a while. And since I made up my mind to really do this I have been very focused on saving money, getting information on where to go when, vaccinations, visas etc. My focus has slightly shifted.

While I still want to meet a great person and share my life with him, it’s not my overall mission in life anymore. Might have also to do with the fact that I passed my 40th birthday a while ago, kids therefore are basically out of the question and there is not so much pressure anymore on finding the right man right now (except from my mother). I love meeting new people more than loving to get to know them. Does that sound weird? Or am I of sound mind?

Questions and more questions. They are coming up more often now. Just passed another birthday and got lots of gifts from my mother to match her vision of me on how to find a man. Which freaks me out and ended in a huge fight. And although I know she means well I cannot go on anymore. I hate it that she makes me feel worth less just because I am single. Because I don’t feel like this. I feel ok, sometimes even great. I am also not afraid that I will end up alone. I am sure there is someone around for me to match, just maybe not right now.

So what am I to do?